3 Kiddos Cooperating for Pics...HA!

This was the 3rd attempt for family pictures for our walls & for Christmas cards. There are some super cute & funny shots. These were taken on December 17, 2009.

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!

This is the real reason that I have dropped off the face of the planet.

Sam is a grumpy goose. A cute grumpy goose nonetheless.


Princess Morgan being cute.

Noah loving the sweet car.

Finally something this little boy likes that has to do

with taking his picture:).

Sam is such a handsome boy.

His little skin is so kissable:)

The many challenges & faces of taking pictures of THREE children...

Not at all bad.

Morgan giving her squinting face.

Noah sticking the candy cane in his ear.

He's so amused.

Noah sad, Morgan's thinking it's funny.

Noah happy, Morgan not so happy.

Let's be honest, the faces speak for themselves.

Some super cute family shots though.

Too bad you can't put all the smiles on the kids together in one picture:)

Thank you Fullmer's for being so wonderful with our children!

You Might Ask....Where Have I Been??:)!!

Right after the last post, our family got strep throat.

Noah got it the worst. This is him on the couch the day after we tried to get family pictures for Christmas, our 1st attempt. He's totally passed out on the couch, which is unheard of for this little boy that has no idea how to sit still. He had to get the antibiotic shot & had his glands so swollen we had to keep checking to make sure they didn't get hard & absessed. Then we all got horrible colds. So that was about 3-4 weeks of our life. Needless to say, we did not get those family pics.

Sam & The Last Three + Months...

Sam has been quite a handful. He has reflux and busted our chops quite a bit for the 1st 2 & 1/2 months. He is now on prevacid & is quite a little cutie & is SO MUCH HAPPIER!!!!! Which makes the Mama & the Papa & the Morgan & Noah much, much happier. He also was sick for about 6 weeks with something like RSV. The poor little guy used a nebulizer for about a month.

So now, Samuel Lorrin is a sweet, happy little boy. He loves to smile & gets the cutest little grin on his face when he 1st wakes up & sees you. He also can breath out his nose...it's amazing how much happier that makes a little one:). Right now he's loving chatting up a storm & blowing raspberries. And Papa says he especially loves the Milk Lady right now....he smiles at her the most:).

@ 2 weeks old
1 month

7 weeks old

(1st smile caught on camera:))

7 weeks old

2 months

This is how is looked while is was sick.

2 months

Trying to smile through the sickness.

Pretty dang cute:).

Isaac with Sam on one of his many breathing treatments.

Just over 2 months old.

Mom with Sam doing the same.

2 and 1/2 months.

10 weeks old

I LOVE this picture:).

10 1/2 weeks.

Getting ready for the game!

Go cougs!

Just over 11 weeks.

3 months old

LOVE this little crinkly nose.

3 months old.

So cute.

Sam just last week.

Taken on 11/15/09.

Such a handsome boy!!!!

Noah holding baby Sam.

He's finally really liking him since he's stopped crying so much.

Now Noah tells me when he's crying & says

"Mama, baby's kcryin. Let's go find. Aww, it's otay baby Sam."

Never thought that day would come:).

Had to take a pic of his Halloween outfit.

He was at least willing to cooperate:).

Even if it was taken 2 weeks after Halloween.

Morgan with Sammy.

She's always loved him.

Tears or not.

She used to just immitate him & laugh.

My 1st attempt at all 3 of my angels.

So cute:).

SO many sleepless nights later. We have a super handsome, cute, happy boy...that has joined our other 2 cuties! Whew. I look forward to the sleeping through the night sometime again in the near future. We are so glad that he is healthy again & his reflux is under control. He had us pretty scared there for a little while, in more ways than one:). Thank you so much for joining our family Wiggly Fuzzy Bear. We love you!

What a Year...

I'm just not sure about how I've really been feeling lately. My emotions are everywhere. When I think about it, I guess it really has been a bit of a crazy year and I think it's finally caught up with me.

A pregnancy...much easier than Noah's, but still sick until about 20 weeks.

Morgan's surprise surgery, recovery & rehab.

All of us being apart from Isaac for almost 3 months this summer, except for one weekend. And Isaac coming home about 2 and 1/2 weeks before our baby.

The c-section, recovery & new baby who is also colicky & has reflux.

Sam being sick for over 2 months. Not sleeping & on a nebulizer. Although he is much better now, he's still not allowed to be out & about in closed spaces with lots of people.

Morgan having more seizures again. Trying to get her back & adjusted on a medication.

Noah is so cute, but he is getting such a mouth. Lots of time outs for this little man. And boy does he like to find pens & scribble all over my couches with them.

Isaac having issues with work & having to go out & work again.

Issues with insurance. Not only will an individual policy obviously not cover Morgan but me as well.

Losing a really close family friend & grieving. And watching his family grieve & suffer his loss.

Having baby blues & trying to make myself get out and exercise.

HATING my body after 3 babies.

Too tired and have no time to beautify & make myself a better person.

Being along with all 3 kids while Isaac is out working again.

Halloween was a nightmare. There are no pictures from this night. Morgan cried & had tantrums through the 1st 30 minutes...then we had about 20 minutes of everyone being happy...then Noah freaks out screaming & kicking & doesn't want to trick or treat & he doesn't want to leave.

And let me tell you how sick I am of trying to get my children to eat right now. After making dinner & listening to the baby scream the entire time I'm doing so, having them not eat. Urgh!!!! And having to threaten every bite with going to their room & the final threat of going to bed right then. I so followed through with that threat last night.

And I am so tired of feeling all alone. I feel like I harass my neighbors & family here. Asking them for help...which I am so not good at. I have most definitely gotten better at it this year.

I really can't do too much with Sam still & I'm scared to have Noah go & play places because of getting sick & bringing it home. Morgan going to public school with lots of germs. Oh, how gross it is to see her push on her actual wheels on her chair & then touch her face & lick her hand. YUCK!

I'm done, I need a vacation. I'm exhausted. I'm emotionally drained. I miss my family who live on the east coast. And miss my best friend who works & then is trying to figure out what he's going to do with his career while he's at home. Boys are so not good at talking on the phone.

And my dang baby won't take a bottle.

Did I forget anything?

Oh yeah, all I want to do is crawl under my covers, watch T.V., try & sleep maybe & eat everything in sight. This will so help me with the issues I'm having with my body.

And debt. Bills, bills, & more bills.

And always wishing that your daughter could talk & understand more & run & play with the other kids.

....and the year isn't over yet.

Called Home

I have struggled the last 2 days with the words that can do this great man justice.

Naki Maile, passed away on Friday morning due to a heart condition he didn't even know he had. I cannot believe how quick life can be taken from you with no warning.

Naki adored his wife & six girls. He is one of our family's closest friends. SO caring, so giving, so loving. Isaac & Naki played ball together at BYU. Naki & Abby have been our friends since college. When we were goobers & didn't have our lives straight & then when we were sealed in the temple for time & all eternity. He & his sweet family were always there when we needed a visit after a surgery with Morgan, (Morgan loves him & Abby & the girls:)) brought us meals, treats, came to our children's blessings, & of course we visited just because sometimes. We love this family so, so much. Naki is truly an amazing man. His whole family is.

I will always remember Naki's smile & laugh & the way he loved his family & ours.

Life is fragile. You really never know when you will be called home. Let's all make a difference in the lives of those around us & use Naki's shining example.

If any of you can help this sweet, sweet family who so desperately needs help at this time, please do. Prayers, good thoughts, lots of love & donations. If you can donate, donate anything, please visit http://www.nakifamily.com/ .

Naki you were called home too soon. You will be greatly missed. Your girls will be taken care of & loved by all.

Abby, I love you. I have always looked up to you. You are a beautiful & strong woman. A terrific mother & those gorgeous girls are so, so lucky to have you. You can do this & we are there if you ever need anything. Our prayers are with you Abby & the girls always. Abby, Line, Malia, Lose, Eli, Eva, & Ane...WE LOVE YOU & are always here for you.

We are so blessed to have had you in our lives Naki. We will see you again.

Our Triple M

In all of the craziness of Isaac being gone & getting ready for a birthday party & a new baby...I forgot to post about Morgan Mae's birthday! And I cannot forget about her SIXTH birthday!

Morgan Mae was a surprise that came with surprises, just 6 months after we were married. Antibiotics cancel birth control:). They told us from the get go that if would more than likely be a miscarriage. I hemoraged at 8 weeks, 17 weeks, & 30 weeks.

At 20 weeks, they found her bilateral cleft lip & palate...nothing else. That didn't take very long to get over & find the right surgeon, even before she was born.

At 25 weeks while Isaac was with the Raiders in California, I went to our new high risk doctor in Maryland. The lady asked if we had ever had any Down's counseling.(Down Syndrome). No, we had not. The doctor then came in & preceeded to tell us of half of her complications. The others to be found out after she was born.

We were told she would more than likely not live to be born & definitely not more than 1 year.

Isaac was released from the Raiders, so he was home for our 1st lamaze class & jokingly I said, she'll probably be a c-section, along with everything else.

Sure enough, we just started to clear out a room at my parent's house, when I started hemoraging. We rushed to the hospital. I was hooked up to magnesium & was given 2 steroid shots for her lungs, just in case. Well, the contractions wouldn't stop & neither would the bleeding. And that caused the start of placenta previa.

Morgan Mae was born by emergency c-section at 3:35 a.m. on July 31st.

At 30 weeks and 5 days, Morgan was 3 lbs & 10 oz & 16 inches long.

Everyday when we would visit her in the NICU, they would tell us about something else that hadn't developed properly. We knew about the cleft lip & palate & the dialated ventricles in her brain, but not about her heart defect, all the parts in her brain that didn't divide or develop, her congenital scoliosis, her eye problems.... and all the premie issues too(to name a few). Then one of the sweet doctors said to me "But look at her. Look at all the things that did go her way."

Morgan has had 6 craniofacial surgeries, open heart surgery, 2 orthopedic surgeries, 3 others--(ears, hemangioma, cyst removal), & botox & phenyl injections for spasticity. She also started having seizures a couple months before she turned 2. And has been under anesthesia or sedation more times than I can count.

Morgan has a wonderful personality & you would never know about her many struggles & challenges in life. She would hug & give loves to anyone. She truly sees people's souls & has no idea about scary or strange appearances.

Morgan is the most determined, stubborn, social, & sweetest little girl I know.

And she's absolutely beautiful. That curly blonde hair & those long dark eye lashes!

That is why she is our Triple M. Our Mircle Morgan Mae.

We are eternally grateful for your willingness to come down to us & show us what life is all about.

Happy 6th Birthday Miracle Morgan Mae!!!!

My Noah

"Mama...Mama. iiickers(stickers)."
"What did you say Noah?"
"Maamaa, ook(look) ickers."
"Ooohh, cool stickers."
"Can you please show Mama where you got your stickers?:)"
There goes the book of my brand new 1st class stamps.