Wednesday, September 24, 2008


Noah and I walked to Petco and to the Post Office with our little dog Niki this morning. And it was one of those days when I realized how happy I am. How amazing life is. I just sat their staring at all the wonders thinking how beautiful everything is around me! I noticed the leaves are changing on the mountains, the sky radiating the most amazing blue, and the weather, well, it is absolutely perfect.

I can breathe on my own, I can see on my own, I can smile, and walk. And I have this sweet little boy who is taking everything out of his diaper bag & gibber gabbering up a storm on his little play phone. He's laughing, & Niki's sitting right next to him in the jogging stroller, smiling away too.(Yes, dogs smile:)) Morgan is at school, by the way, she loves it! Every morning she starts yelling "Hi!" down our driveway to the bus & bus drivers, smiles & laughs, so of course they do too, and once she's up the little wheelchair lift, she turns around and tells me "Ah-Ma, Bye. I Laaa Ooou". ( love you.)

So yes, some days as a momma are hard. Some days I just don't feel like I can hear "uh-oh" one more time or feel like I can't handle Noah exerting his independence by throwing himself on the floor or making his body limp when I try to get him to follow me or hear the noise Morgan makes when she doesn't feel like signing but wants something desperately. And worse of all, there are those days where I just can't fathom having to pick her up over & over again. Not one more time. And that is an awful, selfish thought. Some days it's hard not be selfish too.

Then, some days are perfect. You've found the perfect balance. You got good sleep and your kids might not be on their best behavior, but the day is just perfect. Of course, it's always nicer when they are on their best behaviors:). I love the evenings, right before bed. We run around, playing peek-a-boo, hide & seek, have tickle fights(it's the best when me & Noah gang up on Morgan), chase each other growling, and fall on on backs laughing. And a new favorite, putting our legs up in the air while on our backs & back down again, then our arms....etc. Kind of like follow the leader, but in Morgan style:). I am finding this new love for being a stay at home mom. It's incredible to watch your children everyday. Ladies, we are all so blessed. Give those babies an extra squeeze today.

Now, if only Isaac would come home. We miss you like crazy Papa!!!


Melissa Mae Johnson said...

I love reading your posts, because they are so upbeat and positive!
I too, am grateful to stay home with my little Mae, despite the moments that are rough. Being a stay at home mom is the best and I'm so glad I get to do it.

mckenna said...

That is such the perfect description of LIFE!! That's how the last three days were for us, with Jason home. Everything was perfect, even though there was nothing extraordinary going on. And then Jason left, so life is getting back to normal. We can't wait to come play tomorrow night!!

The Johnson Family said...

Erin thanks for sharing that, I love being at home too. It seems when you are having one of the down days, the Lord sends you a little tender mercy like your post to pick you back up. Or maybe kick your behind back into line a little. We love you and miss you so much.

Karen said...

Thank you for sharing your gift of expression with us. Some days the sun shines and some days it doesn't:) I miss you and all the little crazies (including Nikki)- can't wait to see you again.
Love and hugs,